House on fire

In the shallow ,still waters of his heart a house was being constructed. A safe haiven. Venice showed us ,that a house can stand on water.

With no construction guidelines and safety measures put in place , it was just a house built with passion and the dream to have someone to lay thy head.

The foundation for it was on aqua, very stable for its given time, attention and care.

The imagination of the finished product , would be the glitter in his eyes, the spark that dreams comes from , the unimaginable positivity of a grand and fulfilling conclusion .

The house was complete all that was left was the tenant, for you dont build a house that no one will live in.

A special place in the heart of those still waters, where if you were to catch a glimpse from the back of the house , youd see soo much floating wood.

Trials that never made it to the roofing , some made it but the mistakes in the foundation made them crumble after a time . The most important thing in a house is the foundation, they say and he made this one with that experience in mind.

As the tenant moved in and was ready to put her things inside. She had a change of mind, cold feet is the phrase. Left the gas on and windows open .

Oxygen in high supply, a spark tringering her shared dream with the lonesome waters extinguished , she didn’t look back As the light dimmed in his eyes.

But i built that house for you. This was our dream , the place beyond the pines where we would sit on the porch with a blanket, accompanied by tales of last and yet as we quietly lean towards each other while we look upon the lake of still waters.

As the smoke dissipates ,the timber lumbering away ,his house sinking into the abyss and with his head on his hands he concludes , “just another black hole disguised as a supernova.”

Baby im your house on fire.

A grey situation

What am i doing here? what was i thinking would happen if i came here? Is this what i really want?

Am just sitted on the edge of this old “skul” couch with brown and cream prints on it, looking a like mutant tiger on its last legs.

Am here sitted at the corner watching a tv series i don’t even like. The person i came to see, couldnt be any more interested in me than the show, which is pre-loaded on a flash drive. I still wonder, why am i here?

Am here sitted at the corner, just dropping glanses at this person who invited me here, hoping they will notice my dismay. She looks at me and tucks herself tighter on the other corner. I avert my gaze towards the tv to this outrageously fake and scripted reality tv that has been chosen over me.

I glance at my phone, go through the messages i wish i had received. My phone is dying, what will i do after it dies,i wonder . I see a “blant” passed through my field of vision. Its said that the shortest distance between two point is a straight line, i have never felt as curved as i am right now.

I glance forward and glare at the smoke as it disappears from vision.”i wish that was me, right now ” look at me feeling jealous over smoke. Pathetic!! . Is this what they meant when they told me i should get out more?? What’s the fun in it?? I could have been curled up in bed and watching something i actually enjoy right now.

Check my phone once more, i get a message. How glorious, now i got someone to talk to. The message is from someone i love but they dont love me back(its life,what can you do). I dont know how to react, should i be supportive or say what i actually feel??

I decide to be supportive, write a sentence words i dont mean and go offline. Now i am completely alone in a room full of people.

I am sure we have all experienced this. I am no one special but we all wanna be treated like we are special.

Am about to head home, this was a bust ,never doing it again. I Am sticking to my comfort zone.

The End